mental imprisonment

Going back to when I was a teen, I grew up around the ghetto. Criminals, thieves, just people up to no good. This is what I was surrounded by. At the same time, just because someone is surrounded by negativity, doesn’t mean you have to follow what other people are doing. Be a leader and lead your own charge, lead your own future, lead your own legacy. You don’t have to be in jail to be doing time!

            In school I knew a lot of people who used to be bullied. The bully would take their food, take their school work, and pretty much take their pride. Just steal their hearts like a thief in a dark foggy night. It hurt to watch them feel so worthless. Not having the heart or the courage to stand up for themselves. In school i was pretty shy, so I didn’t really conversate with anyone. I was just concerned on getting good grades and, making my family proud. I never had to deal with someone taking anything from me, because I’ve always stood up for myself. You don’t have to be in jail to be doing time.

            Mental abuse is the worst thing in the world. It’s like someone has you on a string like a puppet, and every time they move a string that’s how you move. Making them feel so empty inside. Listening to everything they may have to say, even though you already know everything that you are hearing may not be the truth. It’s just to control you and make you feel like they are right every time. You don’t have to be in jail to be doing time.

           

Negativity

If you were determined to get enjoyment out of every moment, you would learn to do whatever it took. What it takes is not listening to negative thoughts, yours or anyone else's. Disregarding negative thoughts isn't hiding our head in the sand, but simply not allowing the negative to clutter and influence over our experience of the present moment. The moment is never improved or helped by negativity, although we are programmed to think our negative thoughts, worries, and fears serve a useful function.
When you really examine this idea, however, you see that negativity doesn't serve. Focusing on negativity and fears doesn't make anyone a better person, nor does doing that help us function better in the world. In fact, the truth is quite the opposite.
If we fail to realize our full potential as human beings, we live more on an animalistic level. This is fine for dogs, cats, and chimpanzees but doesn’t work quite so well for women and men. Without the capacity to freely shape our own lives, much as a sculptor might carve stone, we inevitably slip into negativity and depression.  

Be Yourself!

   I have always swung back and forth between alienation and relatedness. As a child, I would run away from the beatings, from the obscene words, and always knew that if I could run far enough, then any leaf, any insect, any bird, any breeze could bring me to my true home. I knew I did not belong among people. Whatever they hated about me was a human thing; the nonhuman world has always loved me.  
  I can't remember when it was otherwise. But I have been emotionally crippled by this. There is nothing romantic about being young and angry, or even about turning that anger into art. I go through the motions of living in society, but never feel a part of it. When my family threw me away, every human on earth did likewise.
I am... me. No matter what I say or do, I'm still me. That 's what Satozuki told me once. The things I feel, the things I do... Being a vampire, Being a man, being betrayed by my mother... when all those things come together, they make up me. But none of these things taken separately. I'm just me.

don't judge me!

 You have the right to kill me, but you don't have the right to judge me. That's life. There's nobility in that. There's focus. It's genuine. It's crystal and it's pure and it's available to everybody. I see people being judged all the time and all I can do is shake my head. They don't know what is going on in my head, just hating for no reason.
When people judge you in a negative way, it's just their way of saying good job your the best! They just don't have the balls to say it, because their situation is not right. No matter what just know that your opinion doesn't matter to me whatsoever. What do you do for me?
I was raised to be thankful for what I have. To only worry about my problems, straighten out my issues and better myself. Sometimes I make mistakes, we are all human, but as long as I learn from them I will always be ok. If I don't then i'm the biggest fool in the world, and the haters were right.

Love Life

If you're looking for Mr. Perfect, you're going to spend your whole life being disappointed, because he doesn't exist.I know there were no guarantees. No way of knowing what came next for me, or him, or anything. Some things don't last forever, but some things do. Like a great song, or a good book, or a good memory you can take out and unfold in your darkest times, pressing down the corners and peering close, hoping you still see the person you see there .
 That was the thing, you just never knew. Right now, though, I wanted not to think forward or backward, but only to lose myself in the words.  You have to get the best deal you can, but there will always be problems. Robin was disposed to feel desperately sorry for anyone with a less fortunate love life than her own  if desperate pity could describe the exquisite pleasure she actually felt at the thought of her own comparative paradise.
My life is never perfect, but life is always a beautiful thing. I choose to see the beauty out of it. I choose to make it wonderful. I choose to love life and it loves me back in return. I may only have one life to live, but if I do it right, once is enough.

Hard Work

    If a man is called to be a streetsweeper, he should sweep streets even as Michelangelo painted, or Beethoven played music, or Shakespeare wrote poetry. He should sweep streets so well that all the hosts of heaven and earth will pause to say, here lived a great streetsweeper who did his job well.
    I know you've heard it a thousand times before. But it's true - hard work pays off. If you want to be good, you have to practice, practice, practice. If you don't love something, then don't do it.Hard work spotlights the character of people: some turn up their sleeves, some turn up their noses, and some don't turn up at all.
Make a pact with yourself today to not be defined by your past. Sometimes the greatest thing to come out of all your hard work isn't what you get for it, but what you become for it. Shake things up today! Be You...Be Free...Share. 

Fake Friends

There are lots of haters in the world. I'm sure we all have our share of them. But one thing I've learned in all these years is that you can't get ahead if you'll try to get even. As hard as it can be sometimes, you just have to be better.
 You won't be happy trying to make other people miserable anyway. Just live your life to the fullest and forget the enemy. Remember, the best revenge is to forgive, live well and succeed. Nothing drives people crazier than seeing someone have a good life!
In your life you will deal with hurt, disappointments , heartaches , headaches, heartbreaks , liars, cheaters, players, fake friends, scandalous females, trust issues, backstabbers , gossipers , and most importantly deceitfulness. you have to expect a punch and take a Tylenol , have dirt thrown on you and brush it off, be tripped but stand up stronger than ever.